2006 was one of those years that you're glad is over, but at the same time so many things happened that you don't really want to remember, but you don't really want to forget either so I'm kind of going to do a year in review sort of thingy. Here goes....
JANUARY
Hockey, Hockey, Hockey and more hockey! The Lightning had a blast at tournament even though it ended with me and a horrible sinus infection, and the start of W.'s lung thing. Alos, I think that was the month where W. lost his Grandma and a favorite cousin all in one week. It was a great month and a horrible month all in one. Dad and Grandma both had birthdays.
FEBRUARY
I turned the big 30 with a great birthday party planned for me by my fave cousin! Played a lot more hockey and tried to get over that nasty infection.
MARCH
I got to play in the Masters tournament! Fun, fun, fun. We only won one game but we had a good time. W. had his work hockey tournament and we BOUGHT OUR HOUSE!!!! It was still just a hole in the ground, but it was our hole in the ground! A stressful couple of days and some quick decisions but so exciting! Went to the CMHA convention in Edmonton - a fun ladies road trip and a very horsey weekend.
APRIL
April was Grandpa's birthday party and that's about it. I think that we just watched the house grow and started riding.
MAY
VEGAS BABY! W. and I headed for Las Vegas for the first time with his hockey team. We had a blast! It was our only holiday of the year and we made the most of it. May was also Mom's birthday.
JUNE
June brought our annual Ladies Clinic - riding, friends, food and wine! A great time for all. June was also W.'s 30th Birthday. We had a big party for him in his parents backyard and he played some ball that weekend too.
JULY
This was the month where W's lung problems escalated. We spent some time in a few different hospitals for tests. We also managed to get in a nice weekend of camping, just the two of us too. We found out that W. has cancer and that he's going to need surgery soon.
AUGUST
We headed down to Washington State for the C-Fair horse show, which was a blast! It was a little stressful being so far away and not knowing if W. was going to have to go for surgery right away. This was the only show I made it to this year, and it was a good one. We place in 4 of 6 classes and won one! Our first US show was a success! The rest of the month was a lot of waiting and wondering when W would have the surgery. We were also trying to find out whether we could move into the new place a month early. We also lost Tucker in August which made a very sucky month even sadder.
SEPTEMBER
Sept 1 was W.s surgery. He had 2/3 of his right lung removed and was in the hospital for 8 days. It was a pretty stressful time, but they got all the tumor out and it hadn't spread at all, so he pulled through really well. He was off work for the rest of September, recovering at home. He's doing awsome now - no remaining effects at all! September was also the start of a new season of hockey for me, and for our local CHL team. We have season tickets and go to all the games. This was also our 2nd wedding anniversary.
OCTOBER
We moved in at the end of this month! October was full of house stuff, furniture buying and meeting with lawyers etc. W. started back to work 1/2 time in the middle of the month and did well. We had a big moving party and were in the new house all in one day! It's gorgeous and wonderful and we are so happy there! Our Alberta friends were in town and we did a beautiful fall trail ride.
NOVEMBER
W. is back to work full time and hockey carries on. November was a busy month for me at work. W. starts playing hockey again! Things are right back to normal now. I played a lot of hockey and we had a tournament and the first Christmas event! I love Christmas! We also found our new kitten this month! She's made herself at home with us and we love her!
DECEMBER
More hockey, Christmas decorating and shopping filled December. W. lost another family member this month, one of his close Aunts passed away suddenly. I got stuck out of town for work due to some crazy wind and snow and wasn't able to get home for the service. We had a great Christmas with all of our families and had a well deserved week off between Christmas and New Years. Not enough time though! We need a vacation!!!
So that's 2006. Here's to hoping for a happy, healthy and fun 2007!
Showing posts with label W is Sick. Show all posts
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006
The Blahs
I'm reluctant to write about anything too personal on here. I am an intensely private person and there is nothing that makes me more uncomfortable or embarrassed than to have other people know when I am unhappy or stressed or dealing with a problem in my life. I like to present a happy, content front to the world. I like to look strong. I'm not strong. I'm not strong at all.
There are some things going on right now that are making me feel so stressed and so weak on a daily basis. I don't know how to handle it, I don't know what to do and I certainly can't go out and talk to someone about it. I like to keep my life and my problems to myself.
However, this particular problem, one that has reared it's ugly head more than once in the past, is back again. Of course it's W. and back then, it was a upsetting to me, but in the grand scheme of things, not a deal breaker. I guess I should have forced the issue back then.
Even after everything he went through this summer with his health, he's back doing what I'm certain caused the whole problem. I love him too much to leave him now, and he knows it. So instead of quitting for my sake, or for his health's sake, or even for the sake of the family that we hope to have one day, he carries on. With that, comes the lying.
So not only do I have to worry about his health, I can't trust him, I don't believe anything he says and it's a horrible way to live.
It's starting to affect my whole life. I feel sad all the time, I feel stressed all the time, and I don't really know how to fix of it.
There are some things going on right now that are making me feel so stressed and so weak on a daily basis. I don't know how to handle it, I don't know what to do and I certainly can't go out and talk to someone about it. I like to keep my life and my problems to myself.
However, this particular problem, one that has reared it's ugly head more than once in the past, is back again. Of course it's W. and back then, it was a upsetting to me, but in the grand scheme of things, not a deal breaker. I guess I should have forced the issue back then.
Even after everything he went through this summer with his health, he's back doing what I'm certain caused the whole problem. I love him too much to leave him now, and he knows it. So instead of quitting for my sake, or for his health's sake, or even for the sake of the family that we hope to have one day, he carries on. With that, comes the lying.
So not only do I have to worry about his health, I can't trust him, I don't believe anything he says and it's a horrible way to live.
It's starting to affect my whole life. I feel sad all the time, I feel stressed all the time, and I don't really know how to fix of it.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Catching my breath
It was all I could do this morning to drag my sorry butt out of bed. While I stood in the shower, I thought "whew, last day this week - tomorrow I can sleep in". I drank an extra cup of coffee to get me going.
I'm out of energy. Usually Fall is the time of year where I recharge and relax. This year, it doesn't seem to be that way. The combination of W.'s operation and subsequent recovery, the new house and all the stress that comes with that, and pure freaking insanity at work, the recharge hasn't come yet. I think in part it's that I didn't get the usual breaks over the summer.
Only one horse show, no vacations. It makes it really hard. The only time I took off work, was spent in the hospital with W. I'm so glad I could be there with him, but relaxing and rejuvenating, it wasn't. I haven't been to the gym in a month. I've been riding 4 times in that month. Thank god hockey has started and I'll get in some scheduled exercise.
It doesn't look like that rest is coming for a while yet. We (and here I mean, I) are in the throes of getting this house business all together. It's calling lawyers, real estate agents, insurance companies, mortgage brokers. It's shopping for furniture (fun right? ha!) which is stress in itself. Green or Brown? Matching set, or different patterns? Bedroom set, or just bed and night tables. It's just keeping our apartment tidy and the dishes done. I'm doing this all on top of trying to keep it together in a really stressful and busy time of year at work.
I'm out of energy. Usually Fall is the time of year where I recharge and relax. This year, it doesn't seem to be that way. The combination of W.'s operation and subsequent recovery, the new house and all the stress that comes with that, and pure freaking insanity at work, the recharge hasn't come yet. I think in part it's that I didn't get the usual breaks over the summer.
Only one horse show, no vacations. It makes it really hard. The only time I took off work, was spent in the hospital with W. I'm so glad I could be there with him, but relaxing and rejuvenating, it wasn't. I haven't been to the gym in a month. I've been riding 4 times in that month. Thank god hockey has started and I'll get in some scheduled exercise.
It doesn't look like that rest is coming for a while yet. We (and here I mean, I) are in the throes of getting this house business all together. It's calling lawyers, real estate agents, insurance companies, mortgage brokers. It's shopping for furniture (fun right? ha!) which is stress in itself. Green or Brown? Matching set, or different patterns? Bedroom set, or just bed and night tables. It's just keeping our apartment tidy and the dishes done. I'm doing this all on top of trying to keep it together in a really stressful and busy time of year at work.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Caution: Sucky Week Ahead
So it's finally here. The week where W. goes into the hospital to have part of his lung removed. It's still kind of surreal - almost so that I find it hard to really believe that it's happening.
I'm somewhat of mixed emotions on this whole process. Obviously I'm worried out of my mind about the whole cancer/surgery/hospital part of it. That part of me is sympathetic and concerned and worried. But this other crazy part of me is almost resentful. Isn't he supposed to be the strong one, the healthy one?
I hate the whole business and I can't wait for it to be over so we can go back to our normal lives. I'm not good with being the care-taker, the nurturer. It goes against all my instincts and it makes me uncomfortable. It's really hard for me to deal with this.
I'm somewhat of mixed emotions on this whole process. Obviously I'm worried out of my mind about the whole cancer/surgery/hospital part of it. That part of me is sympathetic and concerned and worried. But this other crazy part of me is almost resentful. Isn't he supposed to be the strong one, the healthy one?
I hate the whole business and I can't wait for it to be over so we can go back to our normal lives. I'm not good with being the care-taker, the nurturer. It goes against all my instincts and it makes me uncomfortable. It's really hard for me to deal with this.
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